Halloween 2010

Wow.

My kids are really handling Mr. Scnauser well. So far.

Some dread has turned to hope :)

Mom & Bill.... lots of stuff has been going on. I've been carrying it around & avoiding it. Bill has now definitely been diagnosed with Alzheimers. It is progressing. But I just got off the phone with Mom. They are ok. Mom is ok. Actually, they are doing very well. There are people close by to help. I want to get down there to see Bill. I talked to him for the first time in months. We laughed. He can still play that gawd awful guitar.... I need to hear & lay eyes on Bill. Maybe over Christmas..Thanksging we'll see. But I feel relief.

Lisa.. lots of stuff has been going on. I've been carrying it around & avoiding it.
( copied & pasted THAT!!:)) Is alone. Had a terrible cold. Donna suggested someone go down. I can't. I mean I could, but I get physically ill every time I do. I vomit & get the runs & I think it is psychological...not physical. This story will never be a good one. But she called last night & talked to Dan for nearly an hour & is in good spirits.

This is a good time for me to make an appointment to see Julie Spare... a psychologist. I saw her once last year in Feb. & that was the first time in 7 years. I think it a wise decision for me to be proactive at this point. I'm strong... but I'm not stupid.




Flash!

Lost this song/found it/needed it :)

On any given day I feel like:

The problem for me is that once my body & mind gets somewhat accustomed to one scenerio, it is changed. My mind and body are wearing out. It is just a statement of fact. I place no blame. How can I "blame" a system that ( naivity showing here) is truly trying to do what is "right"?

I never thought I's be looking so forward to a student teacher whose last name is "Schnauser" and who has a slight speech impediment. Roof roof roof.

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I really, really hate

inept leadership, especially when it makes good people look foolish:(

Coyote Ugly.

The coyotes have been especially vocal and close to our house lately. I don't like it.

It is not unusual to hear coyotes in the spring when the females give birth, but this particular female & her pack has stuck around. THAT is unusual.

The female has a very loud, distinctive and well done howl. Originally I thought that it was fun to hear the young one's attempts at following her exceptional lead; their pathetic yips & croaks were entertaining. But now that it is Fall and they are all very well versed in howling, it has grown erie. So erie that it is a part of our daily discussion & either Dan or I step out with Buster each morning and evening while he does his job.

I sure hope that there has been a good crop of rabbits , mice & other critters to keep the coyotes all full, because I don't want Buster to become a main course. Shiver.

Flash

No giving up

in the Meyer house......

You've got to watch this..minivan fams

ha. Cool, huh.

Jenny's post is soooooooo cute!

What a great idea.

Flash!

I just don't think that I have enough to do.

Things are so boring at school. Everything is so clear. Students are so well behaved because of all the extra special occasions that make them feel good about themselves.

I just don't know what to do with all this extra mental energy I have. I sure hope those CLC people stop into MY class. They will be so welcome seeing as how I am doing SUCH a good job with all of this extra class time I have to teach.

anonymous.

BC update

All under control...literally.

" Where have you been lately?"

Big smile.."Oh around"

"When do you work next?" "I have tomorrow off.. I'll try to get Saturday off" ( Jamie & kids are coming up)

"I have to clean out the car. I've been living out of my car."

"Where have you been sleeping at night?"

"At Matts"

" Yeah. I see you have half a pack of BC pills in your room"

Big smile"Yeah. I have one at Matt's too... I have it all under control"

" Isn't it hard to keep track of the days that way?"

" Don't worry" smile smile smile " I have it allllllllllll under control".

I sure hope that is true.

Parent's scarey moment(s).

Go into your 24 year old daughter's room, look for laundry that may have been on the floor for a week (because you haven't seen her face in a week) and find a half empty package of BC pills.

Gently scan the room for laundry, back out slowly, bow your head and say a short prayer.

Put in a load of your own laundry. Ponder.

Go upstairs, get on your computer , put on some music on from your youth ( the 70s in my case) and remind yourself of the chances you took at her age.

Take a deep breath.

Get on with it.... and wait for that perfect moment to bring the subject up.

Realize that , in this case, there never will be that "perfect" moment free of tension.

Go with it anyway. Do you job. Remember your roll. Put it out there.

What? A note on the package? A message wrapped in humor? No. That will not do.

But what if you get so busy that you forget to say anything &/or that perfect moment passes?

E mail? No. Face it. Face -to-face is the only way to do this.

Have you secured a relationship with this child that is trusting? And do you realize that you just called a 24 year old a "child"? Are you perpetuating a "baby" syndrome? Do you just realize that you are referring to & struggling with the concept of your baby having a baby?

Listen. Do you hear that song by The Band? It is called, " Life is a Carnival".

Got that right.
Flash.

I suck at religion.

On the motorcycle forum I frequent someone posted a quiz on religion. I got a 60% (story of my life) & they were bragging about their awesome scores. So here is how I responded:
The first sentence is in response to one guy saying he was " surprised that a teacher can read from the Bible for literature purposes"...

Is the bible copyrighted? Because if it is , technically a teacher would have to ask the author for permission to use it in class. We just got the memo.

So who IS the author? huh? Tell me that all you religious smarty pants. I got 60% on the damn thing and 20% of MY school population is MUSLIM.

I suck. But I know my trees and bugs

Signed... a religious MUTT: Grandfather/ father's side JEWISH, grandmother/father's side CHRISTIAN SCIENTIST ( yeah.... THAT caused some "probems") , Father eventually followed MEHR BABA, Mother PROTESTANT ( VERY non practicing) , HER mother (my grandmother) SOUTHERN BAPTIST.

I was baptized at the age of 30 CATHOLIC.

But I say "under GOD" at the start every school day with the pledge of allegiance so I figure I'm covered..... even with a score of 60%. OR maybe I will just go to hell.

M

ps. My Christian Scientist Grandmother was the daughter of an EPISCOPALIAN Priest... but he left the church because he refused to believe something about the wine & blood...I now practice yoga & watch Dog The Bounty Hunter to relieve the religious strife I feel...NOT.

Last edited by *******; Today at 08:06 PM. Reason: CONFESSION

Glad it's Friday?

Duh.