I am very sad.

Jamie, Ryan and the kids are moving to the Seattle area. Ryan accepted a job with Microsoft. I do not know how I will survive this nor do I know how to express how I understand that it is likely a good career move for them especially since Ryan has not really been a happy camper at IBM.

Tears will be shed privately about this. It is inevitable. It doesn't matter that I can "hop on a plane" or they "can hop on a plane" or it would be a good excuse to " hop on a plane" after all I "hopped on a plane" for Seattle last Fall and enjoyed it very much.

It matters that Jamie will be far away for the first time ever. It matters that I can't even think about Connor and Grace being far away yet.

I can push things from my mind. I am an expert at it. This I neither can nor want to nor will push from my mind. I will learn how to deal with it and we will all be a champion Haraden/ Meyer/ Nowicki/ Shulte family because it is the only way I will allow my clan to be. Together in spirit always, and in person as often as physically possible.

I am sad. Very sad. But this. This I will get over.