You know? The last week has been about as incredible a week as I have ever had in my career. It is almost impossible to believe that so much could go so wrong so quickly in a school ( I typed "my" school but I am quickly losing any Wildcat Pride that I ever had & so changed it. Yeah. I am sad about that. REALLY sad.) . I feel as if I am in a boat that is sinking. I know that it will right itself but I have some pretty messed up emotions. I really like Dr. Nolan & think that he got shad upon. That makes me want to work really hard for him. But I liked Eric too & worked very hard for him as well & as far as I am concerned, he did the "shadding" so I'm a bit confused right now.
And I am tired. I am so glad that my trip to Seattle was so wonderful (I don't use that word frequently so it means something) because it has put this other crap in perspective. It makes me think of what my Mom has always told me & I typically fight against because it is a poor reflection on my profession but right now I am internalizing "It is a job not a mission" & that is also sad but for me true.
I am going to have to get used to the fact that my career may not end on a high note.But then again, I DO have a choice in how I look at things I guess. Holly & Andrea keep posting because right now you are the stars in a dark sky.
Miss you,
Mary
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I hate seeing my friends so down about this year. I am going to pray that it all changes around and your boat is a speed boat instead, maybe a Princess Cruise line even. Life as school for me is so different in my little world compared to the teachers upstairs.
Mary--I agree 100% with the struggle these 1st two weeks have been. One of my goals, that I actually wrote down, was to remain as positive as possible this year. No matter what. I had a very tough time with that last Tuesday at our staff meeting. Becky has a great perspective on the "ship" comment and I am going to try and look at it that way. We'll get through it together.
Mary, I completely understand your analogy about the ship....and I think for those of us who were there back in the mid-late 90s, it's probably harder to watch, because we know how amazing South can be.....when I started there, I totally felt like I was on that Princess Cruise line....it's been hard to see things change.
I think of all of you every day, and hope you'll all make it through the bumps in this year. There are still so, so, so many awesome people there, but I know it's hard to keep fighting when things seem uphill. That was part of why I became so apathetic outside of my classroom duties in the last few years....it's just a whole new level of exhausting.
Love you guys.....
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