I can't believe it. Denny Hartman....

So I was in the Lower Media today behind the desk by Kris Koenig & I saw a guy at the copy machine making copies. I looked at him and thought I recognized him but brushed it off as a mistaken identity. Then I looked at him closer. And yes. It was Denny Hartman. Shara was also in the LM ( we both have student teachers) and I said to her "Is that who I think it is?! and then under my breath ..Denny Hartman">? She looked at me and said excitedly "Yeah, Yeah! He's in charge of my guy!".

I gave her what I'm sure was a disgusting scowl & went into Steve's office to commiserate...but he wasn't there. I walked back out & Denny was gone. Slime ball. I asked Kris Koenig about it and she said "Yeah, he came in here like he owned the place and then said are YOU still workin here?!" I hope I to see him again and get a change to engage in a conversation. Depending on his demeanor and reaction to me I may be pleasant but what I really want to do is thank him.

I want to thank him for teaching me how NOT to treat people because based on my knee jerk & Kris' reaction to him I know I DO NOT want people to react that way to me. I sincerely hope that my personal legacy does not evoke those kinds of gut feelings. I'd rather be remembered as the lousiest teacher that ever walked the planet.

Oh. And I'll have to thank him for giving me a chance to feel what I feel and in my heart forgive him. I know that is the healthiest thing to do.

Flash!

hahahahahahaha

Cat's out of the bag?

Well since only Danielle from the family reads this I think it is safe for me to announce that she ( Elsie) got engaged yesterday. WOOT!!!! Mother Of the Bride #2 coming up. ... some time this summer somewhere in Colorado.

I have to add that Dan was tickled to have had Zach call him in the middle if the afternoon on Friday & "request Danielle's hand in marriage" . Let the excitement begin!!!

Awesome couple # 2 about to join the family. So cool.:)

M.O.B take 2.......

That is code for now.... but it is exciting news.

A crappy week has turned out pretty good.

So I really didn't feel like going to work any day this week. This is a very new feeling for me at least to feel this way both so consistently and so frequently. It has been such a striking change that it has been alarming to me. It has forced me to question: Am I losing it? Am I fooling myself into thinking that I have some good years in me yet but I'm really already toast? Is it like I've convinced myself that I can run a marathon when in actuality my muscles can't or won't make it any further than 14 miles and I will collapse in agony? What is happening?

I would have to say that in the last two years I have felt like I just wanted to stay home instead of going to work ( when I wasn't feeling sick or under the weather) no more than 5 times total. I have felt that way every day this week. But today was a turning point... I HOPE!I attribute at least some of it to the following; the top two being the most critical I think :

* My kids are starting to like me.
* I am starting to like my kids.
* I have been brave and have called many, many parents about very naughty kids which has exhausted me with anger and trouble but has paid off....they are either behaving or are on their way to an alternative setting.
* I saw Dan today after school... rushed home..I really miss seeing him after school.
* Tomorrow is Friday and Caribou Coffee day.
* My student teacher is going to be ok even though his Dad died unexpectedly Sunday night from complications from a heart attack two weeks ago today. The funeral is Saturday:(
* I am ( almost) prepared for conferences next week.
* Dan shot a really nice buck on our property yesterday morning..the 3rd heaviest deer he's ever shot. num num venison.
* I like "falling back" for Fall's day light's savings time because it is light yet right now and it has felt a bit like I had extra time to get ready in the morning.

Now. Let's hope this is at the very, very least a trend in the right direction!

Flash!

Danielle & Zach's Big Adventure.

WHAT?!

No parent phone calls tonight to tattle on naughty, bratty, "normal" middle school kids tonight?

No lesson plans to plan?

No emails that need consideration/ a response to ie.. NL. RTI plan; 401 meeting at 7:45 tomorrow, NEED IEP input! etc etc etc

Holy Balls. What the hell is my brain going to do right now?

Cripe. This is actually the first evening that I have missed my husband and he has not been home when I get home since the very first day of school. Now THAT is sad.


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