Sanity.

It was so good to see Andrea, Anna, Sarah, Shara, Laura, Kelli (hope I didn't miss anyone!) this morning for coffee. It made my day. I hope to make it as many Fridays as possible. I really have no excuse not to make it ... unless of course I get down and out which I plan to avoid at all costs.

My plan at all costs includes:

1) Go to Coffee Fridays.

2) Go to phoenix over Christmas ...yes, just me....it is a stepping stone to sanity...I just bought my ticket.

3) Up my dose of lexapro for the first time in 7 years or whenever it was I went on it.

4) Start to plan spring break 2013.

5) Space out my 6 sessions of massage to last all year.

6) Continue using my myofacial release roller. I have fallen in love with it and have a small one at school that I use.

7) There is no seven. I like round numbers and I think that six is plenty anyway. It is four more strategies than I needed last year which proportional to what looks like what might be a 4 xs more difficult case load of students. You should see the blue marks in skyward. Now I know why it is called skyward....it is as blue as the sky.

Flash. Oh and be grateful for beautiful weather like this weekend!

Pictures from Seattle.

If you are curious at all about who is who or why.... just ask.

Flash!

Early morning conversation

Jessica is getting ready to go to the deer shack with Dan. She is bringing some camping gear that is somewhat unnecessary. Jess was in the kitchen and couldn't hear us.I say to Dan " I think she thinks she is going camping or something. "

Dan "Yeah".

Me "Does she remind you of someone?"

Dan " Um hm"

Me "Does she remind you of me?"

Dan, "Um hmm."

Me ,incredulously, " REALLY?"

Dan "Yeah".

I asked Dan " Does Jessica remind you of me sometimes? "

Dan looking at me now " Yes. "

Me " WOW I have just always looked at her as some kind of FREAK or something".

Dan & I really laughed. I never knew she reminded him of me so much.

Yeah. This is a good idea...

Think a waiver for NCLB is a good thing? Check this out! After what parents managed to do to South imagine what a few hundred signing a freaking petition can do.Just more scary shit.

"Teensy Gains in test scores in the last four years" a good editorial...

MINNPOST... a blog I like; good reading.

I am tired.

You know? The last week has been about as incredible a week as I have ever had in my career. It is almost impossible to believe that so much could go so wrong so quickly in a school ( I typed "my" school but I am quickly losing any Wildcat Pride that I ever had & so changed it. Yeah. I am sad about that. REALLY sad.) . I feel as if I am in a boat that is sinking. I know that it will right itself but I have some pretty messed up emotions. I really like Dr. Nolan & think that he got shad upon. That makes me want to work really hard for him. But I liked Eric too & worked very hard for him as well & as far as I am concerned, he did the "shadding" so I'm a bit confused right now.

And I am tired. I am so glad that my trip to Seattle was so wonderful (I don't use that word frequently so it means something) because it has put this other crap in perspective. It makes me think of what my Mom has always told me & I typically fight against because it is a poor reflection on my profession but right now I am internalizing "It is a job not a mission" & that is also sad but for me true.

I am going to have to get used to the fact that my career may not end on a high note.But then again, I DO have a choice in how I look at things I guess. Holly & Andrea keep posting because right now you are the stars in a dark sky.

Miss you,

Mary

Trip to Seattle was fantastic!

Giles & his wife Gail. Adore them both. Giles is very intelligent and very odd. He had questions about his grandmother... my Mom had many of the answers he was looking for. She wasn;t in De Dattle but we did a speaker phone call in the kitchen. She had some good stories for Giles & he is intensely interested.

I spent two days with Bink on his boat on the Sound & Lake Union. Quality time I needed. Went to dinner at Rays and then the locks with Donna & my nieces. Really quality time. Donna & I managed to spend more than 12 hours together without screaming at each other and making an embarrassing spectacle of ourselves. Rare. About time at almost 60 & 55 ehhhhhhhhh?

Weather beautiful. More picts later.

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