A crappy week has turned out pretty good.

So I really didn't feel like going to work any day this week. This is a very new feeling for me at least to feel this way both so consistently and so frequently. It has been such a striking change that it has been alarming to me. It has forced me to question: Am I losing it? Am I fooling myself into thinking that I have some good years in me yet but I'm really already toast? Is it like I've convinced myself that I can run a marathon when in actuality my muscles can't or won't make it any further than 14 miles and I will collapse in agony? What is happening?

I would have to say that in the last two years I have felt like I just wanted to stay home instead of going to work ( when I wasn't feeling sick or under the weather) no more than 5 times total. I have felt that way every day this week. But today was a turning point... I HOPE!I attribute at least some of it to the following; the top two being the most critical I think :

* My kids are starting to like me.
* I am starting to like my kids.
* I have been brave and have called many, many parents about very naughty kids which has exhausted me with anger and trouble but has paid off....they are either behaving or are on their way to an alternative setting.
* I saw Dan today after school... rushed home..I really miss seeing him after school.
* Tomorrow is Friday and Caribou Coffee day.
* My student teacher is going to be ok even though his Dad died unexpectedly Sunday night from complications from a heart attack two weeks ago today. The funeral is Saturday:(
* I am ( almost) prepared for conferences next week.
* Dan shot a really nice buck on our property yesterday morning..the 3rd heaviest deer he's ever shot. num num venison.
* I like "falling back" for Fall's day light's savings time because it is light yet right now and it has felt a bit like I had extra time to get ready in the morning.

Now. Let's hope this is at the very, very least a trend in the right direction!

Flash!

Danielle & Zach's Big Adventure.

WHAT?!

No parent phone calls tonight to tattle on naughty, bratty, "normal" middle school kids tonight?

No lesson plans to plan?

No emails that need consideration/ a response to ie.. NL. RTI plan; 401 meeting at 7:45 tomorrow, NEED IEP input! etc etc etc

Holy Balls. What the hell is my brain going to do right now?

Cripe. This is actually the first evening that I have missed my husband and he has not been home when I get home since the very first day of school. Now THAT is sad.


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My girl in 'Nam is enjoying it.

We've heard from her via e mail twice. Haven't heard in two days so expect to soon. The correspondence is short and sweet " we are here and staying here e mail you again soon...." Another 5 days or so and they should be back in the US. Whew.

They'll need time to decompress. I HOPE they have built in a little time off before they return to work schedules but I'm not sure about that.

I won't be expecting the much anticipated face to face stories for awhile but likely some pictures will be on line sooner than that. I look forward to that but first things first. Get home safely Zach & Danielle.

Mom

Confession.

I like to watch Project Runway. That is all.

The First Three Words You See Will Desribe You.

I got fool, beautiful & lovely. So I'm a beautifully, lovely fool. There's some real truth to that.

Have you seen this? CUTE!