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OMG. I just about had a panic attack....got the shakes/ sweats and everything. Ever since I heard that Danielle was getting married I have been in a buying mood. Clothes buying. Seems that once I got started two weeks ago and going to stores after school ( DRAT that student teacher for doing such a good job I had the energy!) and found at least one really, really cute outfit. I will post it as soon as I get a picture. OH! And I finally found a pair of pants that actually fit me. Worthington short , size 8 ( I've lost some weight likely due to the uptick of Lexapro) modern tab dress pants. I nearly pressed "confirm order" on another pair but resisted...that is part of the panic:


I have also been ordering on line from Macys. I ordered four dresses from them; two a size 8 & 10 of the same dress here ( danielle has already seen it so no secrets are being divulged) and two sweater dresses ( more like tunics) same color but size M & L. Well, I love the black dress but it is a bit long ( hits below my knee) and so if I decide to keep it will need to get it hemmed. I also have to have Jessica & Dan look at me in the 8 & then the 10. The 8 fits juts right IMO but it does show a FEW rolls mid back..on my sides. But since I will be wearing a pasmina ( haven't got that yet...YIKES) it may be a non issue. ANYWAY. I have to do the following and in this order :

1) Take my dress to St. Cloud Tailor to see if hemming that style of dress will work. It is very full & pleated & if I will loose the swing effect by hemming it an inch I will send it back. Oh. I checked. No petites in this dress.

2) If it WILL work, the decide which one to keep, the 8 or 10 & send the other back.

3) At the same time ( or before I guess it doesn't matter) send back BOTH sweater dresses.... don't like either, & a top that is too large & I really don't need anyway and I COULD exchange for the right size but eyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeee Dan is going to KILL me when he sees the credit card bill! Even though I told him I'm returning half the stuff.

WHY DID I PANIC?????????? I could NOT find the size 10 black dress!!!!!!!!!!! Did I HIDE it? I never did open it! It was small and flat.... was it THROWN AWAY???!!!! I looked through the other two Macys bags twice... not there. Looked in my closet, under my bed, in the laundry room, the CAR! and then went downstairs. Someone ( God was it ME? ) put it downstairs in a box . HOLY CRAP O LA!!!!!

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. What am I going to do when I retire ? Will I freak out like this when I lose a $12 bottle of Thera Tears eye drops? SHIT!

Oh well. I am absolutely loving looking at clothes again. Really. I have a couple of really cute outfits for school now and Jess showed me a really nice bra that I have three of now for a month and I'm surprised at how having a good fitting bra makes a person feel better too. It is a moving comfort bra...Amazon.

Ok. I'm done. I'll keep you updated on the LBD sitsiiiation.

Bye,

M

I can't believe it. Denny Hartman....

So I was in the Lower Media today behind the desk by Kris Koenig & I saw a guy at the copy machine making copies. I looked at him and thought I recognized him but brushed it off as a mistaken identity. Then I looked at him closer. And yes. It was Denny Hartman. Shara was also in the LM ( we both have student teachers) and I said to her "Is that who I think it is?! and then under my breath ..Denny Hartman">? She looked at me and said excitedly "Yeah, Yeah! He's in charge of my guy!".

I gave her what I'm sure was a disgusting scowl & went into Steve's office to commiserate...but he wasn't there. I walked back out & Denny was gone. Slime ball. I asked Kris Koenig about it and she said "Yeah, he came in here like he owned the place and then said are YOU still workin here?!" I hope I to see him again and get a change to engage in a conversation. Depending on his demeanor and reaction to me I may be pleasant but what I really want to do is thank him.

I want to thank him for teaching me how NOT to treat people because based on my knee jerk & Kris' reaction to him I know I DO NOT want people to react that way to me. I sincerely hope that my personal legacy does not evoke those kinds of gut feelings. I'd rather be remembered as the lousiest teacher that ever walked the planet.

Oh. And I'll have to thank him for giving me a chance to feel what I feel and in my heart forgive him. I know that is the healthiest thing to do.

Flash!

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Cat's out of the bag?

Well since only Danielle from the family reads this I think it is safe for me to announce that she ( Elsie) got engaged yesterday. WOOT!!!! Mother Of the Bride #2 coming up. ... some time this summer somewhere in Colorado.

I have to add that Dan was tickled to have had Zach call him in the middle if the afternoon on Friday & "request Danielle's hand in marriage" . Let the excitement begin!!!

Awesome couple # 2 about to join the family. So cool.:)

M.O.B take 2.......

That is code for now.... but it is exciting news.

A crappy week has turned out pretty good.

So I really didn't feel like going to work any day this week. This is a very new feeling for me at least to feel this way both so consistently and so frequently. It has been such a striking change that it has been alarming to me. It has forced me to question: Am I losing it? Am I fooling myself into thinking that I have some good years in me yet but I'm really already toast? Is it like I've convinced myself that I can run a marathon when in actuality my muscles can't or won't make it any further than 14 miles and I will collapse in agony? What is happening?

I would have to say that in the last two years I have felt like I just wanted to stay home instead of going to work ( when I wasn't feeling sick or under the weather) no more than 5 times total. I have felt that way every day this week. But today was a turning point... I HOPE!I attribute at least some of it to the following; the top two being the most critical I think :

* My kids are starting to like me.
* I am starting to like my kids.
* I have been brave and have called many, many parents about very naughty kids which has exhausted me with anger and trouble but has paid off....they are either behaving or are on their way to an alternative setting.
* I saw Dan today after school... rushed home..I really miss seeing him after school.
* Tomorrow is Friday and Caribou Coffee day.
* My student teacher is going to be ok even though his Dad died unexpectedly Sunday night from complications from a heart attack two weeks ago today. The funeral is Saturday:(
* I am ( almost) prepared for conferences next week.
* Dan shot a really nice buck on our property yesterday morning..the 3rd heaviest deer he's ever shot. num num venison.
* I like "falling back" for Fall's day light's savings time because it is light yet right now and it has felt a bit like I had extra time to get ready in the morning.

Now. Let's hope this is at the very, very least a trend in the right direction!

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Danielle & Zach's Big Adventure.